Random Self assessment

Sitting on stairs, after a light brawl on just a prevailing issue, i realise another prevailing thought popping up into my mind, how weird am I to cope up with.
At times we r weird for our ownselves. I don’t know if I am the only one doing this but I have hardly seen much of my kind mindset n behavior when it comes to socializing.
Once i start realising the bad face of people or group of people or certain behaviour, I start ignoring, stop interacting.. more so because I find it hard to find manipulative ways to tackle with such mindset or I don’t  find it worth pondering. I think n act straight and transparent. I don’t find such things worth applying strategies n my brain over.. but if that is how it has to be, I will have to learn which I M trying to but hasn’t been easy. I think I am lost in thoughts n expressing randomly.
Basically just wondering if I am shooing away basic social life (basic= normal people not too interfering and interested  in others life just for the heck of it, people talking castes and religion in name of society etc) or so called friends by ignoring or I am right so n I need to explore for better mindsets rather is there a scope of finding such people or do I even need to care about it.

Status: oozing thoughts.

(Walking back from corridor  stairs to my office now)

Rains 2012

My city has been waiting for it to rain eagerly and all the frustration with the cloudy hide n seek since some days ended day before. But till it did, it was late night and most of the people atleast the disciplined and “good” ones retire to their beds before that.

Well I am a nocturnal beast. I don’t sleep unless I am reminded of the pain getting up in the morning for office and thankfully, this amazing job is Karn’s responsibility..more amazing bcz it is Him doing it (he is the king of the beasts I just mentioned) but with time as things change, our habits and requirements do, so did his.. And so begins his constant requests aka warning on whatsapp and texts and all kinds of emoticons and blackmail by 11.15..  Ya… I know.. lucky me… But more on that later…

Right now it is all about the rain that night.. It rained heavily. Well I am not a big fan of Rains.. I hated them during school bcz the Game periods got cancelled. I hated them when I grew up bcz other vehicles would spray paint dirt on you while you are on two wheeler.. I hated them when other girls were awwwwwwwwwwwwww about rains as if rest of the seasons were so unromantic for them (ya I don’t go  gaga about the Rain=Romantic funda).. I hated them for screwing the traffic when I drove back home…. Rains also have also been scary for me.. I have no clue why.. but it has been especially untimely rain..

So when it rained heavily this night I as usual had mixed feelings.. could feel d same old thump in heart for the weird unknown fear.. oh rains!! And also Oh the messy Rains and then aah rains..(bye to summers).

But then I went out to my gallery (despite of the last warning from Karn to sleep) and stood there enjoying cool breeze and the rain and noticed people thronging to their galleries that late to feel or witness the rain.. There was no over rejoicement like dancing, shouting hooting like many people do (no offence).. It was just people in their home quietly acknowledging rains.. Someone standing alone, someone with his dogs, someone with his wife someone with their kids..but I could sense one common thing..a solace…. just peace in noise just that of heavy rains.

And rains made me feel good.. Just too good.. I wish the king beast actually stood there to shout and call me inside.. which he did via texts though :p

But I am happy about rains this time 🙂 … Rains 2012!!